Knowing Your Worth
Have you ever loved someone so much but you felt like you weren't good enough for them? I thought at 18 years old I had everything planned out. I was going to marry my best friend, and we were going to live happily ever after.
I was in love with that man, loved him more than I loved myself. I sat around and watched him have relationships with different women. As I waited patiently on the sideline wishing for a chance, Yup, I was a "side chick" to all his relationships and at the time I was okay with that because in my mind I knew him better than all those other girls, and they were just on borrowed time. I thought he was going to wake-up one day and see that everything he needed was in me.
As it were, by him not choosing me I felt like I wasn't good enough for him. It wasn't like other men weren't into me, I just wasn't into them because they weren't him. I was on an emotional rollercoaster. It wasn't until my male best friend asked me, "You being a woman, when is enough, enough?". At that time I couldn't give him an answer. It wasn't until I felt hurt for the last time that what my friend asked me kept playing over and over in my mind. Although it was very hard I had to distance myself from who I considered to be my soul mate, best friend, and homie lover friend. I knew I wanted more than what he was willing to give me. I was more than a side chick. I loved me more!!!
I say that to say this...ladies, just because he doesn't see your worth doesn't mean you're not worthy.
Have you been through something similar? What did you learn going through it? And how did you get past it? I would love to hear from you. Hit up the comments, your testimony just may be what another sister needs to love herself enough to move on.